Today, a familiar voice echoes inside my head reinforcing to look in the good memories of the past, to cherish it and be intentional in making good memories in the present (as my hubby repeatedly encouraged me too).
Living in a family environment where toxicity, emotional abuse and neglect are everyday occurance, I do not have anyone to blame but myself to what I had become. I chose to be “good”, I chose to not walk away even if it meant denying my own self just because I believed God and His Word that I should “honor my parents.” I hope I was wiser to know that taking care of myself should have also been a priority.
Now, a similar verse reminds me today in 1 Peter 3:1 “Wives, in the same way, submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the Word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives.” One can not choose your parents, but one can choose a life partner which I did. And to this verse I now commit myself to be an example for both my husband and children.
Due to my pre-pandemic emotional breakdowns, I lost all both my best and worst memories – along with important life lessons I had build up for years to share with my own children and future grandchildren. Even those special moments that I meant to keep for a lifetime; yet even in this unfortunate event my prayer that someone will see me for who I really am, the will to listen and to understand me were answered.
As much as I want to stop the faint flashbacks inside my head, I needed to hear those words to properly build up myself this time. And for the second time in my life, I wanted to say that I am a joke – that God is a joke – out of anguish of my heart that what I prayed for many many years His answer is no.
Yet this is Your Will – and I know I have to submit. But this time, I need to take a long rest for my spirit is broken.
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